And this is what I want it to be. 3:10 a.m. on 08-28-03
I want to laugh with Lindsay until my belly hurts and I have to do that phlegmy-cough thing. I want to read The Hitchhiker's Series out on my porch and eat lunch and swat bugs away. I want to walk back from 28th street in the morning and get splashed by cars and sit on the curb and eat stale donuts. I want to live the last crappy day of senior week with Kerry and break into Nancy's car again. I want Kristi to wear more pink. I want to watch Hedwig and know the lines before he says them. I want to sit on the boardwalk with Kelly and Michele and give away pizza and discuss the various types of Ocean City People. I just want to golf with you guys. I want to get kicked out of the hip hop cowboy's place with Kelly and fall down the stairs and have lots of cold cold rain and Bruce Almighty. I want to listen to music in the car with my dad on Mondays. I want my mom's bathrobe to always smell like my mom's bathrobe. I want to curl up on my couch and hold hands and make fun of t.v. with Seth. I want to be in physics with Jamie, Christina and LaToya and throw tampons and put post-it notes that say "child prodigy" on Myles. I want to make fun of Matt Smith's motorcycle. I want to circle up before the play and feel the air backstage and the pins and needles of energy. I want to stand on the risers and get Amy Hurt high-fives. I want to sleep in on a snow day. I want to look out the window and see Chicago. I want to chase Myles around with makeup. I want to eat at Denny's after a night of booze and laughs. I want to blast "The Safety Dance" down the streets of Baltimore with Kelly and Lindsay. I want a Kellybonfire. I want late night hangouts and sleepovers and speeding so fast you fly. I want to drive like an idiot. I want to gossip with Christine and Jamie between scenes about boys and drama. I want freshman rollerskating with the Amanda Miller crew and Lindsay and not knowing she would be the best friend I've ever had. I want to count the minutes before the bell rings and steal doorstops. I want to be an annoying freshman again. I want to be Road Cone and Heady Murphy and Murphy Brown again. I want Seth's and my supreme first date. I want Shannontalks second period. I want lunch with Kerry and Frannie and playing figurative flutes and cellos. I want to see Ben Folds and Weezer for the first time and eat french fries afterwards. I want Stephanie's scary basement, and making Food Network Porn Stars. I want Spinach Dip A-head and shopping for a Homecoming dress at Columbia Mall. I want to ride with the top down and goof around with Pat. I want to write stupid haikus and go to Twin Kiss with Katie after school. I want to steal the racecar poster from Newspaper class and put this in its place. I want the night with Pi and the Double T Diner and Josh Griffith in the back seat and too many things in my hands for a decent kiss. I want Charly Horse shows. I want to decorate the Senior Hall for spirit week. I want that last sentence not to sound so corny. I want that night at McDonalds with Brian reenacting internet slang and Kevin and Lindsay's first kiss. I want to watch Ryan get lint-rolled by his dad before Prom. I want to buy My Baby Romeo shirts, walk on the boardwalk, sleep all day, then go out for pizza at midnight. I want to play Phase 10 with Kirsten and the Louks'. I want to laugh the hardest in Creative Writing. I want to mock the life out of chorus with Betsy and Katie. I want to leave the cast party with Ed and get to know him in his car all night. I want to order my salad extra tossed. I want to belly dance. I want to undress Mr. Drew with my eyes. I want to relive my awful first kiss. I want to buy Homies and super bounce balls. I want to laugh at stupid speeches in Public Speaking. I want to Arabian Man Yell. I want to live at NCSA forever. I want to take pictures from my memories. I want to stop feeling like I'm in an airport. I want it to be right now, forever. << >> |
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